I've been throwing this idea around for a few months, but it was only till last night that I decide that I needed to step back even further from the "social media aspect" of the internet. I recently read an article pertaining to this very subject and was shocked to learn that the average American spends 23 hours per week online on social media - how frightening is that?
No, I'm not leaving nor am I taking a break because of any qualms. I love social media, especially Twitter, but I have no time. I find myself trying to go through all my social media feeds to ensure I post something, all while having the guilt that I need to be working, or tending to things at home. It’s a never-ending struggle.
I burn the candle at both ends - I know this, my family knows this, my poor husband knows this. I've started working two jobs at 16 and pretty much never stopped. I'm constantly working, and I always have to have my hands in something. It’s just the way I’m wired. I am in no way, taking a break or a vacation. I am simply removing myself from social media for a little while and refocusing that time and energy on other endeavors that I’ve put higher on my list of priorities.
I'll be honest- much of the reason why I haven't acquiesced and went on hiatus earlier was simply out of an irrational fear of the dreaded unfollow and unlike that may and likely will result in my absence. Last night, I realized I can't worry about things like that, and I can't worry about my social status on the internet... It is incredibly superficial and for the most part, meaningless. To think that I truly ever mattered to someone who could instantly unfollow me with little hesitation or the slightest regret is unnerving.
Much of this has to do with my own new years resolution(s), ones that's been quietly festering in my mind for sometime now.
Resolution 1) I want to spend more time connecting with friends - old ones and new ones
This will mostly be improved by getting a new phone, which I've been putting off because of a multitude of reasons. Don't grab your pitch forks and torches, but I genuinely hate my iPhone. There's nothing inherently wrong with it, it’s just that I find typing on a touchscreen to be far more arduous and time-consuming than I’d like it to be. With my current phone, texting and checking up on friends and family feels more like work than pleasure. I've tried many wireless keyboards for it, but I quickly learned that there isn’t a form factor out there today that isn’t severely lacking. I almost never text anyone other than my husband. I leave my phone lying around the house and forget about it so if anyone does text me, I'm never even around to catch up with them. It's not that I don’t long to connect with people, I just hate typing on a screen. I misspell words half the time, and the problem is exacerbated on the iPhone. Hence why I don't use my phone. (I think I sent about 150 texts last month? Sad.) Phone calls are pretty much my go to, but it seems like so many of us have no time for that anymore.
Resolution 2) I want to make time to document my life and my marriage - via video.
This is something that I've always wanted to do. I love documentary film more than anyone I've ever known and every time I watch a vlog with a cool instrumental overlay, I wonder why I am not documenting my own life! My husband and I have been married for close to 3 years now and barely have 5 photos of ourselves together. This needs to change.
We don't have any wedding photos/video to speak of personally, nor do we have any photos or video of our first house together as we improve and make upgrades together on weekends. I want all of this to be documented not only for us to have, but for our friends and family to see and watch as we live our lives. So many of our family lives out of the city, city and country. A huge chunk of my family lives in France.
Resolution 3) I want to make time to challenge myself and my body - to have the ultimate body.
Don't get this last one confused with me wanting to lose weight. I absolutely don't. Rather, the fact that I can't run a full mile without stopping bothers me. I have zero upper body strength, and I don't want to be 75 years old looking back at old photos thinking "Man, I could have been super fit when I was younger, but I just never tried." I'm not out to get a six pack or join CrossFit. I'm not going to start taking photos of my healthy meals plans or make a Facebook page chronicling my diet and workout regimen- this isn't about any of that. I just know that I can do better, and as things currently stand, I’m not allowing myself to shed the guilt and try.
My husband and I both want to get involved with a lot of charitable causes, and I want to make 5k's a regular thing we do together. I want to get into pilates, bikram yoga (hot yoga), and eventually ballet. But I can't allow myself to spend any money doing any of that when I don't allow myself to designate the time to run and work out for free at home. (We have a treadmill and the full set of Insanity dvd's) It's not that I'm lazy by any means - again I just feel guilty.
What's next then?
Well, I'm giving myself a full-month off. It may be a little longer if I need to. Since I don't have Facebook, my Facebook page was my go-to for contacting me if anyone ever wanted to message me to catch up, but I will be going on a virtual LOA on all platforms (hence the blog post). I needed to have a way to inform everyone all at all once, and this is just the easiest way.
To paint a better picture: My husband, Yancy started college classes on Monday and to paint you a picture, it’s Friday, and I haven’t even bought his books yet. I have 6 months of magazine subscriptions (I believe I have 7 - Vogue, Glamour, Women’s Health, Lucky, Elle, Allure, and Better Homes and Gardens) that I’m dying to read. The last time I hung out with my best friend was way back in October. I need to shed the proverbial fat and stress and for me, social media has been the source of it all. My husband wants me to redesign his website, and I planned on redesigning my own as well. New year, new look. Right? I just worry so much about updating my status and basically letting people know I haven’t fallen off the face of the earth when I know I’m bursting at the seams.
I won't be unreachable, though. I will still have the same old phone number, plus text and e-mail. The best of this is the phone as I really hate typing and won't really be typing much till I get a new phone. It's all a process which this hiatus will be helping provide time for.
So, if you’ve made it all the way here and are still reading this, I truly thank you. Not only for your friendship but for your concern about me and my life. I really appreciate everyone I know, and I want to take the time to better myself so that I can be “the best me I can be” for each and every one of you. Keep me in your thoughts and prayers, and I will see you in a month, or two!
Update: This blog was written two weeks ago, but hadn't had time to post it - a bit ironic isn't it? As of today, I've been on a social media hiatus for about a week. Only jumping on Twitter to contact companies I have accounts for customer care.